jfdsgjghusvgsjbvnjsvnlslnnjfKEEP DELETING SHIT RAWG.
SYNOPSIS: Have you told anyone else youre in love with her? It’s not my secret to keep and I don’t want to have it. I dont want to know, it’s starting to eat me alive.
I’m eating my own words and not following my own advice. I want to get back in the dating game and get my single swag bag but I can’t. Every piece of advice i keep telling…. Wyatt, who sam wants me to date becuase it gets him off the hook of caring how i feel, which he doesnt really anyways so who the fuck knows.
but essentially, don’t let the fear of falling keep you from playing the game. But i am, not that im finding anyone to talk to/ know well anyways. ugh.
i’m too young to be caring about relationships. I’ve been neglecting work and mcat stuff and many many other things i need to be doing to have fun. but im young, and its only summer once, and i just want to fucking enjoy my life, even if that means not always getting everything i want to get done.
at the same time, i want to fucking enjoy being with someone. and i’m still sick and leary of random hookups, or even sex with anyone. I don’t want to actually be a slut, and honestly I think i’ve slept with too many people as it is.
blah blah blah, while there are many other things going through my mind, I will hold off in lieu of actually (Maybe) getting some work done.
Here’s to the last month of summer being more fun, I’ll drink to that.