fuck. why do i feel like this? Why do i feel like a failure when I’m alone? I just want you to go fuck yourself for not responding to me before, and thinking I’m drunk now. Why do i have to be drunk to want someone to be with???!?!
This is why i drink and hook up with people. Not for the sex, but to feel like im not alone. Yeah Yeah yeah it’s bad form and shouts low self esteem blah blah. but fuck it, I feel like absolute shit right now. Alone and miserable and tired. Running on fumes- which is why i feel like such crap- but it doesnt stop it.
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING ME IN TOWSON. COME BACK. please. I know I need to find a new guy, because you are completely worthless to me and will do nothing but hinder any hopes of finding someone new and good, but youre all i’ve got right now, SO PLEASE DONT BE A FUCKING DICK,
god damnit im in such a fucking bad mood. The shootings today and stabbing in Connecticut are horrible. I can’t even imagine, and here i a stressing about finals and failing and being alone. fucking selfish ass over here.