As hard as things get, as down as you may be, giving up and accepting it may be the easiest path, but it certainly shouldn’t be the one you should take.
People, events, grades, rosters, classes, the future, and especially the past can all get you down. They make you want to accept yourself as a failure, a whore, an idiot, a weirdo, a criminal, and a clumsy uncoordinated person, whatever it may be.
The only thing you should do, is move on. Forget it, and take the higher path. It may be harder, a lot harder, but don’t be what others may judge you for. You can change, you will change, and you should do it, even against all odds.
That’s what makes life worth it when you achieve what you want.
You could have stayed where you were, been a loser, and given up. Yeah it’s more fun, you can party and have a great time. But in the end, where does that get you?
Alone, miserable, hating yourself for the shit you did and envying others for their accomplishments.
Be the accomplished, work hard to get there-do whatever it takes.