Everyone is saying I’m all grown up…I’ve come a long way but I’m not there yet

I’m so stressed out I cant even function. Normally playing lacrosse makes me happy. It’s so much fun. But lately I havent been enjoying it at all. I’ve been sucking, and it’s just not fun.

I keep thinking about school and grad school and applications and just HOW MUCH I SUCK. At everything. and it is ridiculous.

I put off giving teachers things for TWO WEEKS. TWO FUCKING WEEKS. what the hell.

and I just ran into Will. Who I can’t stop thinking about. But he already told me he doesnt “like me like me.” Can’t I just stop thinking about all the negatives in my life right now FOR ONE SECOND.

Jeez after Thursday I’ll be done my midterms, it will be spring break, and hopefully I will FINALLY finish all my goddamn fucking school applications and pray to god I get in ANYWHERE. (but hopefully boston). and Hope that If i need to retake my MCATs I can.


Study time. Hopefully I can focus.


About lionking

Ranting about the ups and mostly downs of my life. If you like pessimism and the occasional drunken adventure this is the place for you. I'll try to be more open/clear about my (sometimes nonexistant) dating life. let's see how this goes. Also, this is for sure adult content, so there's your warning.
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