I’m so stressed out I cant even function. Normally playing lacrosse makes me happy. It’s so much fun. But lately I havent been enjoying it at all. I’ve been sucking, and it’s just not fun.
I keep thinking about school and grad school and applications and just HOW MUCH I SUCK. At everything. and it is ridiculous.
I put off giving teachers things for TWO WEEKS. TWO FUCKING WEEKS. what the hell.
and I just ran into Will. Who I can’t stop thinking about. But he already told me he doesnt “like me like me.” Can’t I just stop thinking about all the negatives in my life right now FOR ONE SECOND.
Jeez after Thursday I’ll be done my midterms, it will be spring break, and hopefully I will FINALLY finish all my goddamn fucking school applications and pray to god I get in ANYWHERE. (but hopefully boston). and Hope that If i need to retake my MCATs I can.
Study time. Hopefully I can focus.